The Audition

It is what almost every musician anticipates every day. The chance to get to perform in front of an audience, the support, the appreciation, and the applause are one of the most highest points of being part of a performing band. I still remember myself being lost in another dimension during the performance, oblivious everything except the band, with a ominous voice in my head repeating to me that I couldn't possibly let everyone down now. Because all our sessions, all the times spent practicing, it all boiled down to this, one audition, one shot, one opportunity. And yeah, we did do a great job. The other bands did great too. respect, dudes. music music meeeaaaauuuussseeeek. =)

musicMadness

I think I'm becoming obsessed. Jam session on tuesday till 7.30, Sum41 Concert on wednesday till 10.30, Jammed again today till 6.30, and an audition after school tomorrow. Withdrawl symptoms will probably come in the middle of next week. Anyways, I should go to bed now, its gonna be another long day tomorrow. Stay tuned for more!

On Realisation

Last night, amid heartfelt words with a friend on the phone, I realised that I have been taking so many things in my life for granted. Through so many times that I felt that life had owed me something that was left unaccounted for, that I restrained and isolated myself from others, hoping to find a greater need in this life. I don't know why, but at the end of it all, at the end of every day, I still get overwhelmed with weariness as I look around my room, as if searching for answers.

I'm really sorry for what I have caused all these months. Somehow I'm still trying hard to forgive myself. Hopefully it will come before the night dawns on me. But sometimes, when things change, there's no turning back, right? There's no turning back.