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Saturday, June 07, 2003
Friday, June 06, 2003
Tuesday, June 03, 2003
Okay, for everyone ( especially the people who have been complaining about the ceaseless posting of lyrics in this blog ), here's a ACTUAL entry ( yes, no lyrics. )
Ah, somehow it seems that the quality of the Jam Session DOES affect my immediate mood after it. Went to Swee Lee studios today, must say i was ( and still am ) utterly disgusted with the state of the studios there. If you dont know what I'm talking about, try playing in a studio with guitars with NO straps, misaligned and broken strings, fucked up pickups, trashy sockets, faulty wall sockets for the amplifiers, cables strewn all over the floor, not to mention a drumset that was falling apart, NO music stand and NO microphone stand. ( not that we could use the microphone as it was broken for us already. )
which plainly sucks.
explaining my mood now.
fuck, needless to say, i'm NOT going there again.
Ah, somehow it seems that the quality of the Jam Session DOES affect my immediate mood after it. Went to Swee Lee studios today, must say i was ( and still am ) utterly disgusted with the state of the studios there. If you dont know what I'm talking about, try playing in a studio with guitars with NO straps, misaligned and broken strings, fucked up pickups, trashy sockets, faulty wall sockets for the amplifiers, cables strewn all over the floor, not to mention a drumset that was falling apart, NO music stand and NO microphone stand. ( not that we could use the microphone as it was broken for us already. )
which plainly sucks.
explaining my mood now.
fuck, needless to say, i'm NOT going there again.
Blink 182 - Story Of A Lonely Guy
Push it out, fake a smile
Avert disaster, just in time.
I need a drink, cause in a while,
Worthless answer from friends in mind.
It's dumb to ask, cool to ignore.
Girls posess me, but they're never mine.
I made my entrance, avoided hazards,
Checked my engine, I fell behind.
I fell behind.
She makes me feel like it's raining outside,
And when the storm's gone I'm all torn up inside.
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom.
I get too scared to move, cause I'm a fuckin' boy.
Remember when I was in the grocery store, now's my time.
Lost the words, lost my nerve, lost the girl, left a line.
I would wish upon a star, but that star, it doesn't shine.
So read my book with a boring ending,
A short story of a lonely guy.
I fell behind.
She makes me feel like it's raining outside.
And when the storm's gone I'm all torn up inside.
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom.
I get too scared to move, cause i'm a fuckin' boy.
She makes me feel like it's raining outside.
And when the storm's gone I'm all torn up inside.
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom.
I get too scared to move, cause I'm still just a stupid worthless boy.
Push it out, fake a smile
Avert disaster, just in time.
I need a drink, cause in a while,
Worthless answer from friends in mind.
It's dumb to ask, cool to ignore.
Girls posess me, but they're never mine.
I made my entrance, avoided hazards,
Checked my engine, I fell behind.
I fell behind.
She makes me feel like it's raining outside,
And when the storm's gone I'm all torn up inside.
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom.
I get too scared to move, cause I'm a fuckin' boy.
Remember when I was in the grocery store, now's my time.
Lost the words, lost my nerve, lost the girl, left a line.
I would wish upon a star, but that star, it doesn't shine.
So read my book with a boring ending,
A short story of a lonely guy.
I fell behind.
She makes me feel like it's raining outside.
And when the storm's gone I'm all torn up inside.
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom.
I get too scared to move, cause i'm a fuckin' boy.
She makes me feel like it's raining outside.
And when the storm's gone I'm all torn up inside.
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom.
I get too scared to move, cause I'm still just a stupid worthless boy.
Sunday, June 01, 2003
Silverstein - Friends In Fallriver
Your life lives half a nation away, my heart hurts so.
I believe letting you go was the biggest mistake of my life.
What did I do? Alone and confused.
What can I say? What can I do?
I’m heading the wrong way home.
Knowing alone is alone.
It’s just too difficult to be just me instead of we.
What did I do? Alone and confused. What can I say? Nothing.
I don’t know where to begin since you left me for him.
I don’t know where to begin and you left me for him.
I don’t want to start again, and I can’t be your friend.
I don’t know where to begin since you left me for him.
Your life lives half a nation away, my heart hurts so.
I believe letting you go was the biggest mistake of my life.
What did I do? Alone and confused.
What can I say? What can I do?
I’m heading the wrong way home.
Knowing alone is alone.
It’s just too difficult to be just me instead of we.
What did I do? Alone and confused. What can I say? Nothing.
I don’t know where to begin since you left me for him.
I don’t know where to begin and you left me for him.
I don’t want to start again, and I can’t be your friend.
I don’t know where to begin since you left me for him.
Wednesday, May 28, 2003
<+xovoidua-> there's so many people now.
* @tea-n-you shouts... "Jiaen!"
<+xovoidua-> but theres no netsplit!
<@tea-n-you> no reply. hmmm...
Quits. canpro (lexus@bb220-255-118-197.singnet.com.sg) (online-hub.be.galaxynet.org Boston-Hub.US.GalaxyNet.Org)
Quits. yc- (liabilityy@cm78.gamma184.maxonline.com.sg) (online-hub.be.galaxynet.org Boston-Hub.US.GalaxyNet.Org)
Quits. PuLP (implement-@bb-203-125-46-69.singnet.com.sg) (online-hub.be.galaxynet.org Boston-Hub.US.GalaxyNet.Org)
Joins. handsome7 (nil@cm30.gamma242.maxonline.com.sg)
<+xovoidua-> what the fuck.
<@tea-n-you> well done
* Luc|a`- sets mode: +v handsome7
<+xovoidua-> i think i should shut my mouth
<@tea-n-you> *clap clap clap clap clap*
<+handsome7> what happened???
* @tea-n-you shouts... "Jiaen!"
<+xovoidua-> but theres no netsplit!
<@tea-n-you> no reply. hmmm...
Quits. canpro (lexus@bb220-255-118-197.singnet.com.sg) (online-hub.be.galaxynet.org Boston-Hub.US.GalaxyNet.Org)
Quits. yc- (liabilityy@cm78.gamma184.maxonline.com.sg) (online-hub.be.galaxynet.org Boston-Hub.US.GalaxyNet.Org)
Quits. PuLP (implement-@bb-203-125-46-69.singnet.com.sg) (online-hub.be.galaxynet.org Boston-Hub.US.GalaxyNet.Org)
Joins. handsome7 (nil@cm30.gamma242.maxonline.com.sg)
<+xovoidua-> what the fuck.
<@tea-n-you> well done
* Luc|a`- sets mode: +v handsome7
<+xovoidua-> i think i should shut my mouth
<@tea-n-you> *clap clap clap clap clap*
<+handsome7> what happened???
New Found Glory - Sincerely Me
Dear: Your Name Here,
It's been a long time, very long time,
Since I've heard your voice.
And I bet she never thought I was,
So sorry so.
I've had a hard time, very hard time,
Seeing less of you.
I never thought you knew.
So can you see you're seeing less of me darling?
And you're blind to the fact that my,
Heart stopped beating.
And I'm as good as dead.
And I'm as good as dead.
Dear I forgot your name again,
Just picking up where I left off.
Oh yeah, This is the part where you leave me.
So sorry so.
I've had a hard time, very hard time,
Seeing less of you,
I never thought you knew.
So can you see you're seeing less of me darling?
And you're blind to the fact that my,
Heart stopped beating.
And I'm as good as dead.
This is all I have to say.
Dear: Your Name Here,
It's been a long time, very long time,
Since I've heard your voice.
And I bet she never thought I was,
So sorry so.
I've had a hard time, very hard time,
Seeing less of you.
I never thought you knew.
So can you see you're seeing less of me darling?
And you're blind to the fact that my,
Heart stopped beating.
And I'm as good as dead.
And I'm as good as dead.
Dear I forgot your name again,
Just picking up where I left off.
Oh yeah, This is the part where you leave me.
So sorry so.
I've had a hard time, very hard time,
Seeing less of you,
I never thought you knew.
So can you see you're seeing less of me darling?
And you're blind to the fact that my,
Heart stopped beating.
And I'm as good as dead.
This is all I have to say.
Friday, May 23, 2003
Finch - Letters To You
Can't you see that I wanna be there with open arms?
It's empty tonight and I'm all alone,
Get me through this one.
Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that I miss you, I miss you so.
I want you to know that I miss you, I miss you so.
I'm writing again these letters to you on much I know,
But I'm not sleeping and you're not here.
The thought stops my heart.
Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that I miss you, I miss you so.
I want you to know that I miss you, I miss you so.
No more looking I've found her.
I'm gone away...
I'm gone away.
Can't you see that I wanna be there with open arms?
It's empty tonight and I'm all alone,
Get me through this one.
Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that I miss you, I miss you so.
I want you to know that I miss you, I miss you so.
I'm writing again these letters to you on much I know,
But I'm not sleeping and you're not here.
The thought stops my heart.
Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that I miss you, I miss you so.
I want you to know that I miss you, I miss you so.
No more looking I've found her.
I'm gone away...
I'm gone away.
Thursday, May 22, 2003
Fuel - Shimmer
She calls me from the cold,
Just when I was low, feeling short of stable.
And all that she intends
And all she keeps inside, isn't on the label.
She says she's ashamed,
And can she take me for awhile.
And can I be a friend, we'll forget the past,
But maybe I'm not able.
And I break at the bend.
We're here and now, but will we ever be again?
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade.
Away, again.
She dreams a champagne dream.
Strawberry surprise, pink linen and white paper.
Lavender and cream.
Fields of butterflies, reality escapes her.
She says that love is for fools who fall behind.
And I'm somewhere in between.
I never really know,
A killer from a savior.
'Til I break at the bend.
We're here and now, but will we ever be again?
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade.
Away, again.
It's too far away for me to hold,
It's too far away..
Guess I'll let it go.
She calls me from the cold,
Just when I was low, feeling short of stable.
And all that she intends
And all she keeps inside, isn't on the label.
She says she's ashamed,
And can she take me for awhile.
And can I be a friend, we'll forget the past,
But maybe I'm not able.
And I break at the bend.
We're here and now, but will we ever be again?
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade.
Away, again.
She dreams a champagne dream.
Strawberry surprise, pink linen and white paper.
Lavender and cream.
Fields of butterflies, reality escapes her.
She says that love is for fools who fall behind.
And I'm somewhere in between.
I never really know,
A killer from a savior.
'Til I break at the bend.
We're here and now, but will we ever be again?
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade.
Away, again.
It's too far away for me to hold,
It's too far away..
Guess I'll let it go.
Friday, May 16, 2003
All-American Rejects - The Last Song
This may be the last thing that I write for long.
Can you hear me smiling when I sing this song,
For you and only you.
As I leave will you be someone to say good-bye.
As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye.
My foot is out the door, and you can't stop me now.
You wanted the best, it wasn't me, will you give it back
Now I'll take the lead, when there's no more room to make it grow.
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive, is this what you want?
Is this what you need? How you end up let me know.
As I go, remember all the simple things you know.
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope,
That you will miss me when I'm gone,
This is the last song.
The hearts start breaking as the year is gone.
The dream's beginning and the time rolls on.
It seems so surreal, now I sing it.
Somehow I knew that I would be this way.
Somehow I knew that I would slowly fade.
Now I'm gone, just try and stop me now.
And will you need me now, you'll find a way somehow
You want it too, I want it too.
This may be the last thing that I write for long.
Can you hear me smiling when I sing this song,
For you and only you.
As I leave will you be someone to say good-bye.
As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye.
My foot is out the door, and you can't stop me now.
You wanted the best, it wasn't me, will you give it back
Now I'll take the lead, when there's no more room to make it grow.
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive, is this what you want?
Is this what you need? How you end up let me know.
As I go, remember all the simple things you know.
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope,
That you will miss me when I'm gone,
This is the last song.
The hearts start breaking as the year is gone.
The dream's beginning and the time rolls on.
It seems so surreal, now I sing it.
Somehow I knew that I would be this way.
Somehow I knew that I would slowly fade.
Now I'm gone, just try and stop me now.
And will you need me now, you'll find a way somehow
You want it too, I want it too.
Tuesday, May 13, 2003
AudioVent - Beautiful Addiction
Change the bag
This IV's draining
And I'm afraid.
I need another taste to keep me high.
Inebriated, broken, jaded
Still I need more of you inside.
The pain you deal just kills me better,
The pain is all that keeps me alive.
You don't need your words
To sound like this
I am the hell that saved you
Now, all of your time
Is wasted through
I am the hell that saved you.
Maybe it's manipulation
Who's to say?
And maybe I'm a fool
But it's my life.
I hate to love to love to hate you.
But there's no end for me in sight.
So I'll be hooked on hating you
While you continue to suck me dry.
You don't need your words
To sound like this.
I am the hell that saved you.
Now, all of your time
Is wasted through.
I am the hell that saved you.
You're just too beautiful.
Another fool am I.
You want me on my knees
You're just too beautiful.
Another fool am I.
You've got me down on my knees.
You don't need your words
To sound like this.
I am the hell that saved you
Now, all of your time
Is wasted through.
I am the hell that saved you
That saved you.
Change the bag
This IV's draining
And I'm afraid.
I need another taste to keep me high.
Inebriated, broken, jaded
Still I need more of you inside.
The pain you deal just kills me better,
The pain is all that keeps me alive.
You don't need your words
To sound like this
I am the hell that saved you
Now, all of your time
Is wasted through
I am the hell that saved you.
Maybe it's manipulation
Who's to say?
And maybe I'm a fool
But it's my life.
I hate to love to love to hate you.
But there's no end for me in sight.
So I'll be hooked on hating you
While you continue to suck me dry.
You don't need your words
To sound like this.
I am the hell that saved you.
Now, all of your time
Is wasted through.
I am the hell that saved you.
You're just too beautiful.
Another fool am I.
You want me on my knees
You're just too beautiful.
Another fool am I.
You've got me down on my knees.
You don't need your words
To sound like this.
I am the hell that saved you
Now, all of your time
Is wasted through.
I am the hell that saved you
That saved you.
Sunday, May 11, 2003
Epidemic - Walk Away
No time to register the words you say
As I am stepping over you
And it's a sad state of affairs.
Don't even pretend we're not aware, turned cold.
Walk away.
Untouched, I can't relate to anyone.
Try to be a humble man
A better son, a better friend.
But life gets in the way.
No time to register the shame I feel
As I try not to notice you.
It's a sad state of affairs
To ignore this wrongness everywhere.
Don't Go.
Walk away.
Untouched, I can't relate to anyone.
Try to be a humble man
A better son, a better friend.
But life gets in the way.
It's the way, we silence our senses.
A way, to smother the impulse.
Suffocate the senses.
Suffocate the impulse.
We bury pain, and tramp the dirt down.
No time to register the words you say
As I am stepping over you
And it's a sad state of affairs.
Don't even pretend we're not aware, turned cold.
Walk away.
Untouched, I can't relate to anyone.
Try to be a humble man
A better son, a better friend.
But life gets in the way.
No time to register the shame I feel
As I try not to notice you.
It's a sad state of affairs
To ignore this wrongness everywhere.
Don't Go.
Walk away.
Untouched, I can't relate to anyone.
Try to be a humble man
A better son, a better friend.
But life gets in the way.
It's the way, we silence our senses.
A way, to smother the impulse.
Suffocate the senses.
Suffocate the impulse.
We bury pain, and tramp the dirt down.
Saturday, May 10, 2003
| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid: | Very High |
| Schizoid: | High |
| Schizotypal: | Very High |
| Antisocial: | High |
| Borderline: | Very High |
| Histrionic: | Very High |
| Narcissistic: | Very High |
| Avoidant: | Very High |
| Dependent: | Very High |
| Obsessive-Compulsive: | High |
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- | |
Yeah yeah, I cheated. So what.
Saturday, May 03, 2003
Staind - Take It
I feel like this won't go away
no matter how hard I try
to squeeze my eyes shut
so i can't see the pain
in you - this pain in me.
In me.
But everything that I can say to you
Wont help you, everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it.
I know that I am really not here
to represent what I am not clear
about in my head. sometimes,
I feel fucked up just like you do.
Like you do.
But everything that I can say to you
Wont help you, everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it.
Try to make it through the daily pain
That you feel - maybe tomorrow won't be so bad.
I know it.
'Cause I once felt that way.
Nothing I could say.
Made it go away.
I lived through this.
I still feel this.
I just live for my tomorrow.
Make it go away
Just make it go away
She'll make it go away.
I feel like this won't go away
no matter how hard I try
to squeeze my eyes shut
so i can't see the pain
in you - this pain in me.
In me.
But everything that I can say to you
Wont help you, everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it.
I know that I am really not here
to represent what I am not clear
about in my head. sometimes,
I feel fucked up just like you do.
Like you do.
But everything that I can say to you
Wont help you, everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it.
Try to make it through the daily pain
That you feel - maybe tomorrow won't be so bad.
I know it.
'Cause I once felt that way.
Nothing I could say.
Made it go away.
I lived through this.
I still feel this.
I just live for my tomorrow.
Make it go away
Just make it go away
She'll make it go away.