Finch - Letters To You
Can't you see that I wanna be there with open arms?
It's empty tonight and I'm all alone,
Get me through this one.
Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that I miss you, I miss you so.
I want you to know that I miss you, I miss you so.
I'm writing again these letters to you on much I know,
But I'm not sleeping and you're not here.
The thought stops my heart.
Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that I miss you, I miss you so.
I want you to know that I miss you, I miss you so.
No more looking I've found her.
I'm gone away...
I'm gone away.
Thursday, May 22, 2003
Fuel - Shimmer
She calls me from the cold,
Just when I was low, feeling short of stable.
And all that she intends
And all she keeps inside, isn't on the label.
She says she's ashamed,
And can she take me for awhile.
And can I be a friend, we'll forget the past,
But maybe I'm not able.
And I break at the bend.
We're here and now, but will we ever be again?
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade.
Away, again.
She dreams a champagne dream.
Strawberry surprise, pink linen and white paper.
Lavender and cream.
Fields of butterflies, reality escapes her.
She says that love is for fools who fall behind.
And I'm somewhere in between.
I never really know,
A killer from a savior.
'Til I break at the bend.
We're here and now, but will we ever be again?
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade.
Away, again.
It's too far away for me to hold,
It's too far away..
Guess I'll let it go.
She calls me from the cold,
Just when I was low, feeling short of stable.
And all that she intends
And all she keeps inside, isn't on the label.
She says she's ashamed,
And can she take me for awhile.
And can I be a friend, we'll forget the past,
But maybe I'm not able.
And I break at the bend.
We're here and now, but will we ever be again?
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade.
Away, again.
She dreams a champagne dream.
Strawberry surprise, pink linen and white paper.
Lavender and cream.
Fields of butterflies, reality escapes her.
She says that love is for fools who fall behind.
And I'm somewhere in between.
I never really know,
A killer from a savior.
'Til I break at the bend.
We're here and now, but will we ever be again?
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade.
Away, again.
It's too far away for me to hold,
It's too far away..
Guess I'll let it go.
Friday, May 16, 2003
All-American Rejects - The Last Song
This may be the last thing that I write for long.
Can you hear me smiling when I sing this song,
For you and only you.
As I leave will you be someone to say good-bye.
As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye.
My foot is out the door, and you can't stop me now.
You wanted the best, it wasn't me, will you give it back
Now I'll take the lead, when there's no more room to make it grow.
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive, is this what you want?
Is this what you need? How you end up let me know.
As I go, remember all the simple things you know.
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope,
That you will miss me when I'm gone,
This is the last song.
The hearts start breaking as the year is gone.
The dream's beginning and the time rolls on.
It seems so surreal, now I sing it.
Somehow I knew that I would be this way.
Somehow I knew that I would slowly fade.
Now I'm gone, just try and stop me now.
And will you need me now, you'll find a way somehow
You want it too, I want it too.
This may be the last thing that I write for long.
Can you hear me smiling when I sing this song,
For you and only you.
As I leave will you be someone to say good-bye.
As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye.
My foot is out the door, and you can't stop me now.
You wanted the best, it wasn't me, will you give it back
Now I'll take the lead, when there's no more room to make it grow.
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive, is this what you want?
Is this what you need? How you end up let me know.
As I go, remember all the simple things you know.
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope,
That you will miss me when I'm gone,
This is the last song.
The hearts start breaking as the year is gone.
The dream's beginning and the time rolls on.
It seems so surreal, now I sing it.
Somehow I knew that I would be this way.
Somehow I knew that I would slowly fade.
Now I'm gone, just try and stop me now.
And will you need me now, you'll find a way somehow
You want it too, I want it too.
Tuesday, May 13, 2003
AudioVent - Beautiful Addiction
Change the bag
This IV's draining
And I'm afraid.
I need another taste to keep me high.
Inebriated, broken, jaded
Still I need more of you inside.
The pain you deal just kills me better,
The pain is all that keeps me alive.
You don't need your words
To sound like this
I am the hell that saved you
Now, all of your time
Is wasted through
I am the hell that saved you.
Maybe it's manipulation
Who's to say?
And maybe I'm a fool
But it's my life.
I hate to love to love to hate you.
But there's no end for me in sight.
So I'll be hooked on hating you
While you continue to suck me dry.
You don't need your words
To sound like this.
I am the hell that saved you.
Now, all of your time
Is wasted through.
I am the hell that saved you.
You're just too beautiful.
Another fool am I.
You want me on my knees
You're just too beautiful.
Another fool am I.
You've got me down on my knees.
You don't need your words
To sound like this.
I am the hell that saved you
Now, all of your time
Is wasted through.
I am the hell that saved you
That saved you.
Change the bag
This IV's draining
And I'm afraid.
I need another taste to keep me high.
Inebriated, broken, jaded
Still I need more of you inside.
The pain you deal just kills me better,
The pain is all that keeps me alive.
You don't need your words
To sound like this
I am the hell that saved you
Now, all of your time
Is wasted through
I am the hell that saved you.
Maybe it's manipulation
Who's to say?
And maybe I'm a fool
But it's my life.
I hate to love to love to hate you.
But there's no end for me in sight.
So I'll be hooked on hating you
While you continue to suck me dry.
You don't need your words
To sound like this.
I am the hell that saved you.
Now, all of your time
Is wasted through.
I am the hell that saved you.
You're just too beautiful.
Another fool am I.
You want me on my knees
You're just too beautiful.
Another fool am I.
You've got me down on my knees.
You don't need your words
To sound like this.
I am the hell that saved you
Now, all of your time
Is wasted through.
I am the hell that saved you
That saved you.
Sunday, May 11, 2003
Epidemic - Walk Away
No time to register the words you say
As I am stepping over you
And it's a sad state of affairs.
Don't even pretend we're not aware, turned cold.
Walk away.
Untouched, I can't relate to anyone.
Try to be a humble man
A better son, a better friend.
But life gets in the way.
No time to register the shame I feel
As I try not to notice you.
It's a sad state of affairs
To ignore this wrongness everywhere.
Don't Go.
Walk away.
Untouched, I can't relate to anyone.
Try to be a humble man
A better son, a better friend.
But life gets in the way.
It's the way, we silence our senses.
A way, to smother the impulse.
Suffocate the senses.
Suffocate the impulse.
We bury pain, and tramp the dirt down.
No time to register the words you say
As I am stepping over you
And it's a sad state of affairs.
Don't even pretend we're not aware, turned cold.
Walk away.
Untouched, I can't relate to anyone.
Try to be a humble man
A better son, a better friend.
But life gets in the way.
No time to register the shame I feel
As I try not to notice you.
It's a sad state of affairs
To ignore this wrongness everywhere.
Don't Go.
Walk away.
Untouched, I can't relate to anyone.
Try to be a humble man
A better son, a better friend.
But life gets in the way.
It's the way, we silence our senses.
A way, to smother the impulse.
Suffocate the senses.
Suffocate the impulse.
We bury pain, and tramp the dirt down.
Saturday, May 10, 2003
| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid: | Very High |
| Schizoid: | High |
| Schizotypal: | Very High |
| Antisocial: | High |
| Borderline: | Very High |
| Histrionic: | Very High |
| Narcissistic: | Very High |
| Avoidant: | Very High |
| Dependent: | Very High |
| Obsessive-Compulsive: | High |
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- | |
Yeah yeah, I cheated. So what.
Saturday, May 03, 2003
Staind - Take It
I feel like this won't go away
no matter how hard I try
to squeeze my eyes shut
so i can't see the pain
in you - this pain in me.
In me.
But everything that I can say to you
Wont help you, everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it.
I know that I am really not here
to represent what I am not clear
about in my head. sometimes,
I feel fucked up just like you do.
Like you do.
But everything that I can say to you
Wont help you, everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it.
Try to make it through the daily pain
That you feel - maybe tomorrow won't be so bad.
I know it.
'Cause I once felt that way.
Nothing I could say.
Made it go away.
I lived through this.
I still feel this.
I just live for my tomorrow.
Make it go away
Just make it go away
She'll make it go away.
I feel like this won't go away
no matter how hard I try
to squeeze my eyes shut
so i can't see the pain
in you - this pain in me.
In me.
But everything that I can say to you
Wont help you, everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it.
I know that I am really not here
to represent what I am not clear
about in my head. sometimes,
I feel fucked up just like you do.
Like you do.
But everything that I can say to you
Wont help you, everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it.
Try to make it through the daily pain
That you feel - maybe tomorrow won't be so bad.
I know it.
'Cause I once felt that way.
Nothing I could say.
Made it go away.
I lived through this.
I still feel this.
I just live for my tomorrow.
Make it go away
Just make it go away
She'll make it go away.
Thursday, May 01, 2003
Korn - Alone I Break
Pick me up
Been bleeding too long.
Right here, right now
I'll stop it somehow.
I will make it go away
Can't be here no more.
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone.
These feelings will be gone.
These feelings will be gone.
Now I see the times they change
Leaving us, it seems so strange.
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind.
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break.
I have lived the best I can,
Does this make me not a man?
Shut me off.
I'm ready
Heart stops.
I stand alone
Can't be my own.
I will make it go away
Can't be here no more.
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone.
These feelings will be gone.
These feelings will be gone.
Now I see the times they change
Leaving us, it seems so strange.
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind.
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break.
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
Am I going to leave this place?
What is it I'm hanging from?
Is there nothing more to come?
Is it always black in space?
Am I going take its place?
Am I going to leave this race?
I guess God's up in this place?
What is it that I've become?
Is there something more to come?
Now I see the times they change
Leaving us, it seems so strange.
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind.
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break.
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
Pick me up
Been bleeding too long.
Right here, right now
I'll stop it somehow.
I will make it go away
Can't be here no more.
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone.
These feelings will be gone.
These feelings will be gone.
Now I see the times they change
Leaving us, it seems so strange.
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind.
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break.
I have lived the best I can,
Does this make me not a man?
Shut me off.
I'm ready
Heart stops.
I stand alone
Can't be my own.
I will make it go away
Can't be here no more.
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone.
These feelings will be gone.
These feelings will be gone.
Now I see the times they change
Leaving us, it seems so strange.
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind.
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break.
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
Am I going to leave this place?
What is it I'm hanging from?
Is there nothing more to come?
Is it always black in space?
Am I going take its place?
Am I going to leave this race?
I guess God's up in this place?
What is it that I've become?
Is there something more to come?
Now I see the times they change
Leaving us, it seems so strange.
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind.
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break.
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
Monday, April 28, 2003
Staind - Change
If ever you had said to me before,
That I would leave this life that I am living now
I guess it's all so strange.
To feel the way I do inside
Have so much that I could feel
Some pride for in my life
So why is it that I feel like this?
How do I feel? I've been here before. I've felt this.
Retreat to a place, a place within me, I need this.
Keep it all down, all bottled inside, it breaks me.
To torment again and torture me like it used to.
I try and try to break away from all the hate
I'm feeling for every one of you that's ever done me wrong.
I need to justify the reasons for the way I'm living.
I guess I can't 'cause I don't feel like I deserve.
So now the waves they have subsided
And my soul is bleeding I can't take away the shame I feel.
Forgive me.
How do I feel? I've been here before. I've felt this.
Retreat to a place, a place within me, I need this.
Keep it all down, all bottled inside, it breaks me.
To torment again and torture me like it used to.
If ever you had said to me before,
That I would leave this life that I am living now
I guess it's all so strange.
To feel the way I do inside
Have so much that I could feel
Some pride for in my life
So why is it that I feel like this?
How do I feel? I've been here before. I've felt this.
Retreat to a place, a place within me, I need this.
Keep it all down, all bottled inside, it breaks me.
To torment again and torture me like it used to.
I try and try to break away from all the hate
I'm feeling for every one of you that's ever done me wrong.
I need to justify the reasons for the way I'm living.
I guess I can't 'cause I don't feel like I deserve.
So now the waves they have subsided
And my soul is bleeding I can't take away the shame I feel.
Forgive me.
How do I feel? I've been here before. I've felt this.
Retreat to a place, a place within me, I need this.
Keep it all down, all bottled inside, it breaks me.
To torment again and torture me like it used to.
Friday, April 25, 2003
12 Stones - Crash
As I lie tossing in my bed,
Lost in my fears remembering what you said.
And I try to hide the truth within
The mask of myself shows its face again.
Still I lie time and time again
Will you deny me when we meet again?
And I feel like I'm falling
Farther every day.
But I know that you're there
Watching over me.
And I feel like I'm drowning
The waves crashing over me
But I know that your love
It will set me free.
As I find truth where I found it times before
As I search for your hope
I'm finding so much more
And I try to be more like you
And I deny myself to prove my heart is true.
I hear your voice calling
The time has come for me.
Inside this life I’m living
There’s nothing left for me
My mind is slowly fading
So far away from me.
Each time I start crawling
You’re there watching me.
As I lie tossing in my bed,
Lost in my fears remembering what you said.
And I try to hide the truth within
The mask of myself shows its face again.
Still I lie time and time again
Will you deny me when we meet again?
And I feel like I'm falling
Farther every day.
But I know that you're there
Watching over me.
And I feel like I'm drowning
The waves crashing over me
But I know that your love
It will set me free.
As I find truth where I found it times before
As I search for your hope
I'm finding so much more
And I try to be more like you
And I deny myself to prove my heart is true.
I hear your voice calling
The time has come for me.
Inside this life I’m living
There’s nothing left for me
My mind is slowly fading
So far away from me.
Each time I start crawling
You’re there watching me.
Tuesday, April 22, 2003
Stone Sour - Bother
Wish I was too dead to cry,
My self-affliction fades.
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater.
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be.
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds.
Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all.
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying.
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds.
Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgottenwith its memories
Diaries left with cryptic entries.
And you don't need to bother
I don't need to be.
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds.
You don't need to bother,
I don't need to be.
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I'll never live down my deceit.
Wish I was too dead to cry,
My self-affliction fades.
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater.
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be.
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds.
Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all.
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying.
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds.
Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgottenwith its memories
Diaries left with cryptic entries.
And you don't need to bother
I don't need to be.
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds.
You don't need to bother,
I don't need to be.
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I'll never live down my deceit.
Monday, April 21, 2003
Saliva - Rest In Pieces
Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did.
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine.
You look so beautiful tonight
Reminds me how you laid us down,
And gently smiled before you destroyed my life.
Would you find it in your heart,
To make this go away?
And let me rest in pieces.
Would you find it in your heart,
To make this go away?
And let me rest in pieces.
Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
You got much closer than I thought you did.
I'm in your reach
You held me in your hands.
But could you find it in your heart,
To make this go away?
And let me rest in pieces.
Would you find it in your heart,
To make this go away.
And let me rest in pieces.
Would you find it in your heart,
To make this go away.
And let me rest in pieces.
Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did.
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine.
You look so beautiful tonight
Reminds me how you laid us down,
And gently smiled before you destroyed my life.
Would you find it in your heart,
To make this go away?
And let me rest in pieces.
Would you find it in your heart,
To make this go away?
And let me rest in pieces.
Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
You got much closer than I thought you did.
I'm in your reach
You held me in your hands.
But could you find it in your heart,
To make this go away?
And let me rest in pieces.
Would you find it in your heart,
To make this go away.
And let me rest in pieces.
Would you find it in your heart,
To make this go away.
And let me rest in pieces.
Saturday, April 19, 2003
12 Stones - Broken
Alone again again alone
Patiently waiting by the phone
Hoping that you will call me home
The pain inside my love denied
Hopes and dreams swallowed by pride
Everything I need it lies in you.
‘Cause I’m broken
You know I need you now.
Deep inside I'm broken
You see the way I live
I know, know your heart is broken
When I turn away
I need to be broken
Take the pain away.
I question why you chose to die
When you knew your truth I would deny
You look at me
The tears begin to fall
And all in all faith is blind
But I fail time after time
Daily in my sin I take your life.
All the hate deep inside
Slowly covering my eyes
All these things I hide
Away from you again.
All this fear holding me
My heart is cold and I believe
Nothing’s gonna change
Til I love again.
Alone again again alone
Patiently waiting by the phone
Hoping that you will call me home
The pain inside my love denied
Hopes and dreams swallowed by pride
Everything I need it lies in you.
‘Cause I’m broken
You know I need you now.
Deep inside I'm broken
You see the way I live
I know, know your heart is broken
When I turn away
I need to be broken
Take the pain away.
I question why you chose to die
When you knew your truth I would deny
You look at me
The tears begin to fall
And all in all faith is blind
But I fail time after time
Daily in my sin I take your life.
All the hate deep inside
Slowly covering my eyes
All these things I hide
Away from you again.
All this fear holding me
My heart is cold and I believe
Nothing’s gonna change
Til I love again.
Monday, April 14, 2003
3 Doors Down - When I'm Gone
There's another world inside of me
That you may never see
There's secrets in this life
That I can't hide
Somewhere in this darkness
There's a light that I can't find
Maybe it's too far away..
Maybe I'm just blind.
Maybe I'm just blind.
So hold me when I'm here
Love me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything you need
I'll also be the one
You wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good
So hold me when I'm here
Love me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone
Love me when I'm gone.
When your education x-ray
Can not see under my skin
I won't tell you a damn thing
That I could not tell my friends
Roaming through this darkness
I'm alive but I'm alone
Part of me is fighting this
But part of me is gone.
Love me when I'm gone..
Love me when I'm gone..
When I'm Gone
When I'm Gone
When I'm Gone.
There's another world inside of me
That you may never see
There's secrets in this life
That I can't hide
Somewhere in this darkness
There's a light that I can't find
Maybe it's too far away..
Maybe I'm just blind.
Maybe I'm just blind.
So hold me when I'm here
Love me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything you need
I'll also be the one
You wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good
So hold me when I'm here
Love me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone
Love me when I'm gone.
When your education x-ray
Can not see under my skin
I won't tell you a damn thing
That I could not tell my friends
Roaming through this darkness
I'm alive but I'm alone
Part of me is fighting this
But part of me is gone.
Love me when I'm gone..
Love me when I'm gone..
When I'm Gone
When I'm Gone
When I'm Gone.
Saturday, April 12, 2003
sheeeeesh. no one online? at 8.30? jeez. seems like i'm the only one left home.
ah well, went biking today to upper pierce reservior.. cycled around for awhile, then sat down at some rocks, and thought over lots of stuff. i dont know. hahahaha. long time since i've stopped to really think about stuff. dint really figure out much anyway.
well, i'm back home now. typing this crap after my bath and dinner. really tired. i think i'll sleep early today. bye.
ah well, went biking today to upper pierce reservior.. cycled around for awhile, then sat down at some rocks, and thought over lots of stuff. i dont know. hahahaha. long time since i've stopped to really think about stuff. dint really figure out much anyway.
well, i'm back home now. typing this crap after my bath and dinner. really tired. i think i'll sleep early today. bye.
Thursday, April 10, 2003
yo! back at the com again. whoooo. yesterday's jam session was quite okay, except that my amp sucked, kept overheating and cutting me off halfway, and the distorter which basically didnt give out any distortion because of the flat battery. hahaha. but still, it was cool. We jammed Kryptonite and Hate To Say I Told You So.. not that great sound from us, just missing a few rhythm brushups. i broke an electric guitar's E string too. LOL. i wanna go try it out again! think we should be able to do better after hearing the songs at home a few more times. yeah guys? =D
