Saturday, August 30, 2003

The Concert

the curtain was drawn, with us onstage, the crowd ringing in our ears, and edwin began his pre-performance act with vern before we began the actual song. i remember almost shivering during the second song, silently praying that i wouldnt screw up or i would never forgive myself. and it wasnt until the bridge of the first song that i realised that i was playing a blink song WITHOUT my distortion on, which as i realised, didnt make much of a difference as the amp was cranked up so high it distorted itself. later after our song, edwin also told me he had problems with his distortion switch, but HIS amp was also cranked up so high, that it had the same effect as mine. hahhh.

and so it ends. the practices, the rehearsals, the concert. but the spirit would live on, the hours we had spent together practicing our sets, together and seperately, the number of practices and jams all the bands had, the team-bonding, I know some of you guys out there would be reading this, and I would like to say, it has been a privilege being a part of a concert with you.

Thank you.

Sunday, August 24, 2003

On rainy days.

it started raining soon after we met up, and strode into davis ( a distraction ) to look. yeah. we did get wet, running back to the MRT, but it was quite fun actually. hahaha. reminded me of my primary school days, where we used to run in the rain after school, laughing without a care, without giving a damn about the disapproving stares we got on the bus home. haaah.

yarp! Foo is now the proud owner of a new Ibanez GSR Soundgear Bass, almost fully equipping our band. there was a metal band jamming at Swee Lee's studios while we were there, and they had a really good drummer. the rest of the band sounded okay too. albeit a little too loud, actually. but they really could jam. oh yeah, they werent Singaporean, they were some bunch of Ang Mo's. lol~. got back home after the rain let up a bit.

and i love days like this, of dark overcast skies and winds howling through the windows and rain falling onto your window grills and spilling onto you; nothing beats the solitude of being at home having to listen to no one else's voice.

oh yeah, if you were wondering, the music that is playing is "Clumsy" by our lady peace. enjoy. :)

Saturday, August 23, 2003

fake a smile.

alright! the rehearsal will be on tuesday and thursday next week. we had another band practice today! this time at a different studio, recommended by joshua. =) thanks for the tip! haha. the place was really good. probably because of the good maintenance by the fellow there. he even came in to help us clear up the room after our session. haaah. the drums were a little too loud though. and they didnt sound-damp the room well enough. other than that, everything there was great. *grins*

yaahaaaahh. i kinda feel that i've been neglecting everything else since the deferralofsilence started practicing for the teachers day performance. so to everyone else! sorry if i've pangseh-ed you people after school. hahaha. i'll make it up to you after the exams! =)

will be going band-shopping tomorrow. hahh. for Clarence's bass. yarp! thats about it. goodnight, taaaake care and be good all !
Understatement - New Found Glory


I'm sick of smiling, and so is my jaw
Can't you see my frown is dropped way down.
I'm sick of being someone I'm not,
Please get me out of this slump.
I'm sick of clapping,
When I know I can do it better for myself.
I'm sick of waiting,
I'm sick of all these words that will never matter.

I'll write these words together,
Hoping for a chance to think on time.
And I'm tracing over your letters,
To see if your intentions are as good as mine.

But you're getting worse,
I swear it.
It's hard to prove, you're an understatement.
You're getting worse,
And I know,
That you'll be calling, calling, calling me again

I'm done with everything,
That had the two of you.
Don't worry your pictures are already burned.
I'm dumped with new friends,
Don't sell yourself short,
You'll lose it in the end.


I'll write these words together,
Hoping for a chance to think on time.
And I'm tracing over your letters,
To see if your intentions are as good as mine.

But you're getting worse,
I swear it.
It's hard to prove, you're an understatement.
You're getting worse,
And I know,
That you'll be calling, calling, calling me again

I can't help how I feel
No, I can't help how I feel

But you're
Getting worse,
I swear it.
It's hard to prove you're an understatement.
You're getting worse,
And I know.
That you'll be calling,
Calling, calling me again.

Wednesday, August 20, 2003

A Frenzy Of Everything

Yeeeeessss!! Finally completed my art work, canvas, presentation boards and all! Its going to the marking centre first thing tomorrow morning. Thats one whole load off my mind, for now. next up, preliminary examinations, aaaand, the rehearsal and performance for our band next week. The deferralofsilence has really been practising hard for this, hope it turns out well! =)

yaaarp. ever had a slack and busy week all at once? yeah. slack during school, and busy after school with art work and jamming. like today! five free periods, and one fake fire drill! And its all happening right at the doorstep of the GCE examinations. My class dosen't seem to be in any state of mind for studying now either.

Might be going to Swee Lee tomorrow to buy strings and check out Foo's bass.

=) Gooood night everyone!

Sunday, August 17, 2003

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Wednesday, August 13, 2003

ahhhhhh!

I'm working in a completely new computer envioronment now, as my com has just recovered from a viral attack. Fifty-Two viruses, when I scanned it. Sheeeesh. Took me two days to disable it and clear it all up.
Yeah, so anyways. Beeen slaaacking all week, gone jamming on monday, stayed back in school to do art for yesterday and today, aand perhaps we might be jamming again on friday. How's "DeferralOfSilence" as a name for a band? =) hahaha, yarp. might be calling ourselves that, if everyone is okay with it.

haaaaah. okay!

gotta go have my shower now, having tuition soon, so take care and be good y'all!

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he he. my foot.

Sunday, August 10, 2003

Love To Hate, Hate To Me - AStaticLullaby


Read the tale of my desire,
A book of hate.
1000 Volts for every smile you gave me.
As your eyes close,
I'll brine, as before, the sight of true unhappiness.
Whisper I care,
Then gracious enough I let you go.

Remember me for the times I ruined you.
Not I made you smile.
Take this blade to my wrist,
Help me end what makes you ugly.
Swimming in the pools of my mind,
You come to me at night.
Leave me black and save yourself.

The story prolongs,
With each word my stomach starts to turn.
I've swallowed nails,
So I can never say your name.
Now words are heard through my eyes.

Can you see the fire that burns from my heart?
This song is for you,
So perfect.
Its my fault I can't sleep 'cause you're on my mind.
I have made an attempt to have you,
Tonight I will sleep with the gun in my mouth.
Good night my love.

Saturday, August 09, 2003

TheDailyCrap

waaaazzzzaaaaa. Today's national day thing went rather well. Better than last year. Anyways, apologies to the upper secondary in the canteen today, the mobile system has not been fixed yet and it still sounds kindaaa muddy. yarp. other than that, everything went well I suppose! We even managed to keep all the equipment within 30 mins, 15 mins faster than last year because of our new recruits (Coolies). =D I stayed back in school until about 11am in 3peace slacking with yc, hamzah and foo, then foo started complaining about something I forgot about already before disappearing somewhere.
Anyways. Hamzah and I went to meet Foo and Vern at NovenaSquare before splitting up, with I and hamzah going over to Edwin's place to slack around before going to jam at Boon's.
After jamming and all, w'all went to UnitedSquare to pick up Ed's Amp. yay yay yay. 19kg of freaking cargo added. Slacked and swam @ ed's place & pool. yarp. talked about lotsa stuff. =D haaahh.
I just realised today that I don't sound like me at all when I'm singing. hahahahaha. As in my usual lazy murmuring voice? yarp. Realised that today when I was singing in Edwin's rooom while everyone else was slacking around. hmmmm! going to sleep now. Been a long day. gotta think of a name for the band too. =p take care and be good all!

Thursday, August 07, 2003

Surreal

Had our annual setting-up-of-whole-school-for-national-day-performance today. Carted around all the equipment, fortunately with Justin's and the AV staff's help. At least we got some ice-cream from the office after it all. hah. Anyways. Everything went quite well. No system problems or anything. haha. managed to get home by 8.30 after it all. Going to jam tomorrow. Hope that we can finish our second song, with some luck.
Can't really pen down the rest of my thoughts.

So, till next time.
Outta here.

Saturday, August 02, 2003

The Audition

It is what almost every musician anticipates every day. The chance to get to perform in front of an audience, the support, the appreciation, and the applause are one of the most highest points of being part of a performing band. I still remember myself being lost in another dimension during the performance, oblivious everything except the band, with a ominous voice in my head repeating to me that I couldn't possibly let everyone down now. Because all our sessions, all the times spent practicing, it all boiled down to this, one audition, one shot, one opportunity. And yeah, we did do a great job. The other bands did great too. respect, dudes. music music meeeaaaauuuussseeeek. =)

Thursday, July 31, 2003

musicMadness

I think I'm becoming obsessed. Jam session on tuesday till 7.30, Sum41 Concert on wednesday till 10.30, Jammed again today till 6.30, and an audition after school tomorrow. Withdrawl symptoms will probably come in the middle of next week. Anyways, I should go to bed now, its gonna be another long day tomorrow. Stay tuned for more!

Sunday, July 27, 2003

On Realisation

Last night, amid heartfelt words with a friend on the phone, I realised that I have been taking so many things in my life for granted. Through so many times that I felt that life had owed me something that was left unaccounted for, that I restrained and isolated myself from others, hoping to find a greater need in this life. I don't know why, but at the end of it all, at the end of every day, I still get overwhelmed with weariness as I look around my room, as if searching for answers.

I'm really sorry for what I have caused all these months. Somehow I'm still trying hard to forgive myself. Hopefully it will come before the night dawns on me. But sometimes, when things change, there's no turning back, right? There's no turning back.

Saturday, July 26, 2003

whaaa?

Seven solid hours of art today. BAH. GOOD NIGHT.

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Sunday, July 20, 2003

BayBeats!

Hehe. In a surprisingly awful good mood now, after a seven hour non-stop music marathon at the Esplanade. Baybeats 2003. Local Bands such as Steel City Skies, Bigred.Moment, The Observatory, Better Than Run, Parousia (wheeeooweet!), plus a Japanese band , Buddistson. There were still many other great bands, some which I didnt understand, but still, all of them were unique and musical in their own special way. *grin* This was the first time I've heard our local bands come together in such a large music extravaganza, and I must say, I felt really impressed with their creativity and showmanship. Joshua and I especially enjoyed the Accoustic Christian band, Parousia. =) Really meaningful lyrics and great accoustic guitar. All adds up to fuel our passion towards music. Too bad we had to leave early, as a Emo-Indie Rock band, from the US, The Gloria Record, were playing last. Fantastic Stuff. Mad drummers, jumpy bassists, crazy guitarists and great vocalists. Oh yeaah.

Anyways, I've got to get off this computer thing now. School tomorrow.

Rock On Singapore!

Saturday, July 19, 2003

Cute Without The "E" - TakingBackSunday

Your lipstick, his collar.. don't bother Angel,
I know exactly what goes on.

When everything you'll get is
Everything that you've wanted, princess.
Well which would you prefer?
My finger on the trigger, or
Me face down, down across your floor,
Me face down, down across your floor.
Well just so long as this thing's loaded.

And will you tell all your friends,
You've got your gun to my head.
This all was only wishful thinkin,
This all was only wishful thinkin.
And will you tell all your friends,
You've got your gun to my head.
This all was only wishful thinkin,
This all was only wishful thinkin.
Let's go.

Don't bother trying to explain Angel.
I know exactly what goes on when you're on,
And how about I'm outside of your window
Watchin him keep the details covered.
You're such a sucker,
For a sweet talker, yeah.

And will you tell all your friends,
You've got your gun to my head.
This all was only wishful thinkin,
This all was only wishful thinkin.
The only thing that I regret is that I, I never let you hold me back.
And will you tell all your friends,
You've got your gun to my head.
This all was only wishful thinkin,
This all was only wishful thinkin

Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens,
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins.
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me.
I know you well enough to know you never loved me.
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens,
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins.
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me.
I know you well enough to know you never loved me.
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens,
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins.
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me,
I know you well enough to know.

Why can't I feel anything,
from anyone other than you?
Why can't I feel anything,
from anyone other than you?

And all of this was all your fault,
And all of this.

I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
For this simple reason.
I just need to keep you in mind,
As something larger than life.
She'll destroy us all before she's through,
And find a way to blame somebody else.
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
For this simple reason.
I just need to keep you in mind,
As something larger than life.

Thursday, July 17, 2003

Still

I am feeling so pissed today, why can't anyone be nice and just try to appease me. I wonder how much a punching bag costs?

Tuesday, July 15, 2003

Weary

I tap away at this keyboard only because I have grown so weary of waiting. The silent pains that other people hide in their lives are the only consolation for those that I hide in mine. "It is not so much of me missing her but me missing the idea of her.."

As my heart grows mute with the painful numbness of reality, I eventually come to terms with the fact that there is really nothing left for me to do. The worst that can happen has happened, and I think there is nothing else that can hurt me now. It is now up to me to pick up whats left of my life and move on. I'm just glad that I've started so long ago and though the initial pain was so great, I know it will be good in the end; today's knowledge will be tomorrow's strength.

Sunday, July 13, 2003

Zis ees Fiesta yaar?

The rainbow fiesta, yesterday, wasnt how I thought it would turn out to be.
For one thing, the wrong AV system arrived in the morning, from the wrong company. Which I blissfully didnt realise until the second company came, only to see another system in it's place. Some miscommunication between the teachers and the principal, I last heard.

Anyways, the request stall I was manning got overwhelming response, up to the point that we had to close the stall 2 hours before 4pm , as well as throw in up to four to five dedications per song, just to get everything read out. To those who didnt get your requested song, sorry, we tried.

Commercialised music sucks.

I brought along 450++ songs, with the intent to provide some refreshing, non-repetitive-non-radio-like music, only to realize, with all the commercialised-radio-brainwashed people out there, there was absolutely no chance of doing that.

I'm sorry.

To whom it might concern, especially those whom I might have brushed off in my agitated ( read: pissed off! ) mood yesterday, I'm sorry, thank you, please forgive.

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