Procrastination
I should be posting today. But I'll do it tomorrow? =)
I miss Nelle!!!! =~ gahahahahaha~
Tuesday, June 24, 2003
Déjà Vu
the barbeque went beautifully yesterday, we met up at bishan MRT station before proceeding to board our bus. some guys went to help the girls who were preparing the food to carry it over to the barbeque pit. the rest of us just went there to prepare the area. before long, the fire was ready and the food had arrived. Mr Tan dropped by too. the radio was playing great music, the food was great, the weather was great, everyone was in a happy mood. after some soccer and beach volleyball, we sat down on the sand to watch the constellations, the sky was quite clear that night, apart from a few drifting clouds.
after a few rounds of truth or dare amdist some hilarious scenes that the unfortunate victims were forced to participate in, we cleared up the pit and left the place, tired but happy.
anyways, woke up feeling shittified this morning. fell asleep again only to be rewoken 10 minutes later by Justin calling, asking to meet up at Bishan MRT on the way to school. he had to go for some PSL Ceremony, while I had my art lessons. which i spent most of taking bo-liao photographs with some other guys. heh. check them out in addition to the BBQ photos from last night.
umm..
did you have to put me on top of the two guys below? =|
Noel:EEEEEEEEEE!!!! Sean: WHOOAAHHHH!!!
zzzzzzzz.
Wot you lookin at, PUNK?
erm, arden, that water is meant for washing hands.
Cheeeeeeeeese.
aargaarggghhh!!!
justin and a few others playing cards after dinner.
oie, look up larh.
2 Love 01 United! *grin*
Jolin and Julian, trying to restart the fire.
sheesh I hate eating lemons!
er, another boliao shot taken by yours truly.
this wasn't my idea. honest.
Justin after a bottle of 30% Jim Beam. Undiluted.
a slightly more sober justin.
me!
Evelyn, Jixiang, Rachel and Jolin trying to um, hug a tree?
hehh. noel owes me lunch for this.
erm.. James..?
Edited by Evelyn-
aaaand now, the 2.36m tall Evelyn Xu!
Fang Min and Shu Ling, with Huey Jieh in the background.
arden, practicing the art of Gay-ism
evelyn, julian and huey jieh.
aaaarrrggghh!!!! where's the toilet!??!?!
the barbeque went beautifully yesterday, we met up at bishan MRT station before proceeding to board our bus. some guys went to help the girls who were preparing the food to carry it over to the barbeque pit. the rest of us just went there to prepare the area. before long, the fire was ready and the food had arrived. Mr Tan dropped by too. the radio was playing great music, the food was great, the weather was great, everyone was in a happy mood. after some soccer and beach volleyball, we sat down on the sand to watch the constellations, the sky was quite clear that night, apart from a few drifting clouds.
after a few rounds of truth or dare amdist some hilarious scenes that the unfortunate victims were forced to participate in, we cleared up the pit and left the place, tired but happy.
anyways, woke up feeling shittified this morning. fell asleep again only to be rewoken 10 minutes later by Justin calling, asking to meet up at Bishan MRT on the way to school. he had to go for some PSL Ceremony, while I had my art lessons. which i spent most of taking bo-liao photographs with some other guys. heh. check them out in addition to the BBQ photos from last night.
umm..
did you have to put me on top of the two guys below? =|
Noel:EEEEEEEEEE!!!! Sean: WHOOAAHHHH!!!
zzzzzzzz.
Wot you lookin at, PUNK?
erm, arden, that water is meant for washing hands.
Cheeeeeeeeese.
aargaarggghhh!!!
justin and a few others playing cards after dinner.
oie, look up larh.
2 Love 01 United! *grin*
Jolin and Julian, trying to restart the fire.
sheesh I hate eating lemons!
er, another boliao shot taken by yours truly.
this wasn't my idea. honest.
Justin after a bottle of 30% Jim Beam. Undiluted.
a slightly more sober justin.
me!
Evelyn, Jixiang, Rachel and Jolin trying to um, hug a tree?
hehh. noel owes me lunch for this.
erm.. James..?
Edited by Evelyn-
aaaand now, the 2.36m tall Evelyn Xu!
Fang Min and Shu Ling, with Huey Jieh in the background.
arden, practicing the art of Gay-ism
evelyn, julian and huey jieh.
aaaarrrggghh!!!! where's the toilet!??!?!
Sunday, June 22, 2003
Sundays
thats funny. the comments section disappeared mysteriously yesterday night, only to reappear this morning. strange.
and yes, i'm here on a Sunday morning, which means i've skipped church again. just remembered that i'm supposed to lead the Small Group today. which means, someone's gotta fill in for me till the next gathering.
heh. and my guitar cable just died out on me this morning.
how splendid.
thats funny. the comments section disappeared mysteriously yesterday night, only to reappear this morning. strange.
and yes, i'm here on a Sunday morning, which means i've skipped church again. just remembered that i'm supposed to lead the Small Group today. which means, someone's gotta fill in for me till the next gathering.
heh. and my guitar cable just died out on me this morning.
how splendid.
Saturday, June 21, 2003
Nothingness
for the past few days, even though you might not even have noticed that i was gone, thoughts of you still linger with me. that dark night, where i watched the constellations, gazing at your star sign, and how it's shape vaguely resembled the first letter of your name. and just then, when all the times flashed through the dark sky in front of me, when all the frayed memories resurfaced, that the inevitable truth dawned on me once again. and i asked myself,
why do i still miss you?
but i know i shouldnt, i can't. because it'll never be possible. it broke my heart to see you so sad yesterday. i still care for you, and no matter how hard i try, i'll never be able to change that godforsaken fact.
argh. i should just fuck off and sleep.
for the past few days, even though you might not even have noticed that i was gone, thoughts of you still linger with me. that dark night, where i watched the constellations, gazing at your star sign, and how it's shape vaguely resembled the first letter of your name. and just then, when all the times flashed through the dark sky in front of me, when all the frayed memories resurfaced, that the inevitable truth dawned on me once again. and i asked myself,
why do i still miss you?
but i know i shouldnt, i can't. because it'll never be possible. it broke my heart to see you so sad yesterday. i still care for you, and no matter how hard i try, i'll never be able to change that godforsaken fact.
argh. i should just fuck off and sleep.
Wednesday, June 18, 2003
So Far Away
- Staind
This is my life.
It's not what it was before,
All these feelings I've shared.
And these are my dreams,
That I've never lived before.
Somebody shake me 'cause I,
I must be sleeping.
Now that we're here, so far away,
All the struggle we thought was in vain.
And all the mistakes, one life can take,
They all finally start to go away.
Now that we're here, so far away,
And I feel like I can face the day.
I can forgive, and I'm not ashamed,
To be the person I am today.
These are my words,
That I've never said before.
I think I'm doing okay.
And this is the smile,
That I've never shown before.
Somebody shake me 'cause I,
I must be sleeping.
I'm so afraid of waking,
Please don't shake me.
Afraid of waking,
Please dont shake me.
- Staind
This is my life.
It's not what it was before,
All these feelings I've shared.
And these are my dreams,
That I've never lived before.
Somebody shake me 'cause I,
I must be sleeping.
Now that we're here, so far away,
All the struggle we thought was in vain.
And all the mistakes, one life can take,
They all finally start to go away.
Now that we're here, so far away,
And I feel like I can face the day.
I can forgive, and I'm not ashamed,
To be the person I am today.
These are my words,
That I've never said before.
I think I'm doing okay.
And this is the smile,
That I've never shown before.
Somebody shake me 'cause I,
I must be sleeping.
I'm so afraid of waking,
Please don't shake me.
Afraid of waking,
Please dont shake me.
Tuesday, June 17, 2003
Maybe Not's
i wonder if everything now would be different if i hadnt held myself back, hadn't felt the blinding need to pull back into myself. the fear of rejection, the fear of heartache. was it all these that made me who i am today? perhaps its okay, i dont need anyone special. i have my friends, my sport, my music, my intrests, my family.
still, all amongst all these, sometimes, feelings, thoughts, emotions, all empty, tug at my heart, making me wonder.
is this worth all of this?
but its okay, somehow, through all these, i've learnt to invalidate my emotions. so i dont feel anything much anymore. for what i love, for what that makes me happy. i dont feel. i dont want. i dont need. you.
i wonder if everything now would be different if i hadnt held myself back, hadn't felt the blinding need to pull back into myself. the fear of rejection, the fear of heartache. was it all these that made me who i am today? perhaps its okay, i dont need anyone special. i have my friends, my sport, my music, my intrests, my family.
still, all amongst all these, sometimes, feelings, thoughts, emotions, all empty, tug at my heart, making me wonder.
is this worth all of this?
but its okay, somehow, through all these, i've learnt to invalidate my emotions. so i dont feel anything much anymore. for what i love, for what that makes me happy. i dont feel. i dont want. i dont need. you.
Sunday, June 15, 2003
Indifference
draaagged myself out of bed this morning at 8am to go to church. father's day service. small group senior sunday school ( ass gee ass ass ass ) ( sgsss ) ( whatever ). lunch. back home. met rachel to collect her guitar. restringed the guitar. went to sleep ( almost ). online. blah blah blah. dinner. back. noise on guitar. online. blog.
and yes, i am a shrunken organ donor who loves to sniff mufflers.
draaagged myself out of bed this morning at 8am to go to church. father's day service. small group senior sunday school ( ass gee ass ass ass ) ( sgsss ) ( whatever ). lunch. back home. met rachel to collect her guitar. restringed the guitar. went to sleep ( almost ). online. blah blah blah. dinner. back. noise on guitar. online. blog.
and yes, i am a shrunken organ donor who loves to sniff mufflers.
Saturday, June 14, 2003
Perspectives
woke up today at 11, and before long another day of the holiday rolls by without anything constructive being done. heh.
had a wierd dream last night. remember hearing a wierd two-tone sound repeating itself non-stop. so somehow, i was thinking it was someone with a guitar repeating the same two notes repeatedly, and it was PISSING ME OFF. so went around ( in my dream ) looking for that noisy fella for a while before waking up to discover I had forgotten to switch the cordless phone to standby before going to sleep and its low batt alarm was sounding. hmmm!
anyways, at least gonna go out tomorrow. the last day of the holidays before i have to go back to school everyday for my art preparation work.
you've changed..
woke up today at 11, and before long another day of the holiday rolls by without anything constructive being done. heh.
had a wierd dream last night. remember hearing a wierd two-tone sound repeating itself non-stop. so somehow, i was thinking it was someone with a guitar repeating the same two notes repeatedly, and it was PISSING ME OFF. so went around ( in my dream ) looking for that noisy fella for a while before waking up to discover I had forgotten to switch the cordless phone to standby before going to sleep and its low batt alarm was sounding. hmmm!
anyways, at least gonna go out tomorrow. the last day of the holidays before i have to go back to school everyday for my art preparation work.
you've changed..
Thursday, June 12, 2003
once again, went to swee lee to buy some stuff with yuchern and rachel who wanted to check out the stuff there.
hahaha. i think i've been there once too often already. how'd i know? the staff there are starting to call me by name. heh. love the place (minus the studios) anyway.
yeah. decided to eat sushi at sakae with rachel. yc joined us later. got burnt by overload of wasabi in my soya sauce. aouwch~
heh. gotta make this a quick one. gonna sleep soon (now).
watashi waaaaa! ( ???? )
hahaha. i think i've been there once too often already. how'd i know? the staff there are starting to call me by name. heh. love the place (minus the studios) anyway.
yeah. decided to eat sushi at sakae with rachel. yc joined us later. got burnt by overload of wasabi in my soya sauce. aouwch~
heh. gotta make this a quick one. gonna sleep soon (now).
watashi waaaaa! ( ???? )
Tuesday, June 10, 2003
Our Lady Peace - Somewhere Out There
Last time I talked to you,
You were lonely and out of place.
You were looking down on me,
Lost out in space.
Laid underneath the stars,
Strung out and feeling brave.
Watch the riddles glow,
Watch them float away.
Down here in the atmosphere,
Garbage and city lights.
You gotta save your tired soul,
You gotta save our lives.
Turn on the radio,
To find you on satellite,
I'm waiting for the sky to fall,
I'm waiting for a sign.
All we are is all so far.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
Hope you remember me,
when you're homesick and need a change.
I miss your purple hair,
I miss the way you taste.
I know you'll come back someday,
on a bed of nails awake.
I'm praying that you don't burn out,
or fade away.
And all we are is all so far.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling back to me.
Well I know,
I know.
You're falling out of reach.
I know...
Last time I talked to you,
You were lonely and out of place.
You were looking down on me,
Lost out in space.
Laid underneath the stars,
Strung out and feeling brave.
Watch the riddles glow,
Watch them float away.
Down here in the atmosphere,
Garbage and city lights.
You gotta save your tired soul,
You gotta save our lives.
Turn on the radio,
To find you on satellite,
I'm waiting for the sky to fall,
I'm waiting for a sign.
All we are is all so far.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
Hope you remember me,
when you're homesick and need a change.
I miss your purple hair,
I miss the way you taste.
I know you'll come back someday,
on a bed of nails awake.
I'm praying that you don't burn out,
or fade away.
And all we are is all so far.
You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
You're falling back to me.
Well I know,
I know.
You're falling out of reach.
I know...
listening to the songs that once gave me hope in you.
i realized that all these hopes, were just another figment of my imagination.
a hope that would never come true, as it only existed in me.
always will miss the times we spent talking.
still, you will always be a part of me.
i miss you. but i guess that's the way it has to be.
i'm sorry.
i realized that all these hopes, were just another figment of my imagination.
a hope that would never come true, as it only existed in me.
always will miss the times we spent talking.
still, you will always be a part of me.
i miss you. but i guess that's the way it has to be.
i'm sorry.
Saturday, June 07, 2003
You are Neo, from "The Matrix." You
display a perfect fusion of heroism and
compassion.
What Matrix Persona Are You?
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now, thats mighty good bullshit.
Friday, June 06, 2003
Tuesday, June 03, 2003
Okay, for everyone ( especially the people who have been complaining about the ceaseless posting of lyrics in this blog ), here's a ACTUAL entry ( yes, no lyrics. )
Ah, somehow it seems that the quality of the Jam Session DOES affect my immediate mood after it. Went to Swee Lee studios today, must say i was ( and still am ) utterly disgusted with the state of the studios there. If you dont know what I'm talking about, try playing in a studio with guitars with NO straps, misaligned and broken strings, fucked up pickups, trashy sockets, faulty wall sockets for the amplifiers, cables strewn all over the floor, not to mention a drumset that was falling apart, NO music stand and NO microphone stand. ( not that we could use the microphone as it was broken for us already. )
which plainly sucks.
explaining my mood now.
fuck, needless to say, i'm NOT going there again.
Ah, somehow it seems that the quality of the Jam Session DOES affect my immediate mood after it. Went to Swee Lee studios today, must say i was ( and still am ) utterly disgusted with the state of the studios there. If you dont know what I'm talking about, try playing in a studio with guitars with NO straps, misaligned and broken strings, fucked up pickups, trashy sockets, faulty wall sockets for the amplifiers, cables strewn all over the floor, not to mention a drumset that was falling apart, NO music stand and NO microphone stand. ( not that we could use the microphone as it was broken for us already. )
which plainly sucks.
explaining my mood now.
fuck, needless to say, i'm NOT going there again.
Blink 182 - Story Of A Lonely Guy
Push it out, fake a smile
Avert disaster, just in time.
I need a drink, cause in a while,
Worthless answer from friends in mind.
It's dumb to ask, cool to ignore.
Girls posess me, but they're never mine.
I made my entrance, avoided hazards,
Checked my engine, I fell behind.
I fell behind.
She makes me feel like it's raining outside,
And when the storm's gone I'm all torn up inside.
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom.
I get too scared to move, cause I'm a fuckin' boy.
Remember when I was in the grocery store, now's my time.
Lost the words, lost my nerve, lost the girl, left a line.
I would wish upon a star, but that star, it doesn't shine.
So read my book with a boring ending,
A short story of a lonely guy.
I fell behind.
She makes me feel like it's raining outside.
And when the storm's gone I'm all torn up inside.
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom.
I get too scared to move, cause i'm a fuckin' boy.
She makes me feel like it's raining outside.
And when the storm's gone I'm all torn up inside.
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom.
I get too scared to move, cause I'm still just a stupid worthless boy.
Push it out, fake a smile
Avert disaster, just in time.
I need a drink, cause in a while,
Worthless answer from friends in mind.
It's dumb to ask, cool to ignore.
Girls posess me, but they're never mine.
I made my entrance, avoided hazards,
Checked my engine, I fell behind.
I fell behind.
She makes me feel like it's raining outside,
And when the storm's gone I'm all torn up inside.
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom.
I get too scared to move, cause I'm a fuckin' boy.
Remember when I was in the grocery store, now's my time.
Lost the words, lost my nerve, lost the girl, left a line.
I would wish upon a star, but that star, it doesn't shine.
So read my book with a boring ending,
A short story of a lonely guy.
I fell behind.
She makes me feel like it's raining outside.
And when the storm's gone I'm all torn up inside.
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom.
I get too scared to move, cause i'm a fuckin' boy.
She makes me feel like it's raining outside.
And when the storm's gone I'm all torn up inside.
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom.
I get too scared to move, cause I'm still just a stupid worthless boy.
Sunday, June 01, 2003
Silverstein - Friends In Fallriver
Your life lives half a nation away, my heart hurts so.
I believe letting you go was the biggest mistake of my life.
What did I do? Alone and confused.
What can I say? What can I do?
I’m heading the wrong way home.
Knowing alone is alone.
It’s just too difficult to be just me instead of we.
What did I do? Alone and confused. What can I say? Nothing.
I don’t know where to begin since you left me for him.
I don’t know where to begin and you left me for him.
I don’t want to start again, and I can’t be your friend.
I don’t know where to begin since you left me for him.
Your life lives half a nation away, my heart hurts so.
I believe letting you go was the biggest mistake of my life.
What did I do? Alone and confused.
What can I say? What can I do?
I’m heading the wrong way home.
Knowing alone is alone.
It’s just too difficult to be just me instead of we.
What did I do? Alone and confused. What can I say? Nothing.
I don’t know where to begin since you left me for him.
I don’t know where to begin and you left me for him.
I don’t want to start again, and I can’t be your friend.
I don’t know where to begin since you left me for him.